Monday, June 23, 2014

Interesting how it works.

I know many who really either love Joel Osteen Ministries or really do not like him much at all.

There are times when something goes down the feed that I really know has helped me.


Today, well tonight.....it happened again.


As I began to work for my page tonight, I was scrolling through the feed. Another friend posted about the baby left in the car and was once again saying how that can never happen, shouldn't happen, etc.... 

Well we know it does, we know it has and if you read my other posts, you know how I feel about judging these parents.

I was upset, and just kept scrolling....and this is what I saw~

 Your job isn't to judge. Your job isn't to figure out if someone deserves something or decide who is right or wrong. Your job is to lift the fallen, restore the broken, and heal the hurting.

These posts are how people feel, and I do understand that. All I know is how the parents must feel. How devastated they must be, and what kind of nightmares they will have. Guilt will kill you. This I know all too well.

They need our prayers, they need our understanding and again, they need our prayers. They will never heal from this. NEVER

If I have been suffering for over 20 years just from the experience of finding the baby, holding the baby, seeing the baby and hearing the screams of that mom. What is she going through. What are any of these parents, grandparents and families going through??

I pray for them nightly because I know I should. I wish others would as well. We all need prayers, we all need understanding.

I pray no one will ever have to go through something they were judgmental about. But God is funny, we just don't get his jokes. I pray.....no more babies die. I pray that no other parent ever....has to feel that pain~ But, we know it will happen, and I choose not to judge, as I know as in the case of the baby I found, dead, with her eyes wide open. It was an accident, a cruel and horrible accident. 


Some Days are better than others


After a tough weekend, today started off a little easier. I had nightmares, but not as severe. It wasn't as hot as it has been, and I think that helped. The dog also decided to wake me by stretching into my hip with his claws. But that was good I think as he woke me from the heavy feeling of that poor baby on my chest.

As the days get closer to July 2nd, the chest pain increases and I will hold it in because I DO NOT WANT anyone else to have to deal with it, be reminded of it, to see how totally it destroyed every cell in my body.

This too shall pass......or not. Either way we have to deal with things. Either way, it is life.